Writers Jam

I feel a lot, or nothing at all, So I wonder - if you ask me how I feel, which one am I supposed to answer, is it the reality of all the plethora of feelings that my heart and brain feel in collaboration, or is it the answer you want to hear? I don’t know what to tell you when you ask me how I feel, because at the core of it, is it the question of how I feel now, a few seconds ago, or how I want to feel? aren’t they all feelings? and what are feelings in the first place? why are they reduced to words and thoughts when it is much more than that? why do we restrict feelings to words and one or two emotional words when it is influenced by all our experiences in the past and the ones we aim to avoid in the future? why am I pushed to use only words when what I am feeling at the present is all that I have been feeling since I learnt to make meaning of life, why am I made to question all of that just because you do not understand what I feel, why are my words not able to convey all that I felt, am feeling and will feel,

So when you ask me, How am I feeling? I don’t know, because it’s more than just A feeling.