Writers Jam

I apologize for being late, but for those who've missed it, you can check out below, my last week's post :

https://writersjam.shantaram.xyz/post/2b78a624

January 15th, 2019

Me : Hi, I am Asima. You must be that X (let's assume it's some person's name).

X : Are we cool? Why are you introducing yourself as if we're strangers?

Me : I know, it just feels odd, I mean you're maintaining distance with me

X : It's not because of you Asima, it's because of (she paused again) I cannot choose between you guys okay?

Me : Wait? What?? I am not talking about that? Since, you've blurt this, tell me what were you even thinking X?

X : Nevermind!! You have him and she have him, I am just alone.

Me : What do you mean X?

X : It's nothing, gotta go, catch up later, XD:)

Me : Sure:)

January 21st, 2021

X : Hi Asima!! How are you? It's been two years since we've talked right? How's everything?

Me : Hi X, I'm good. Right, it's been years indeed. What about you?

X : I am good too

Me : Good to hear that:)

X : Between are you still together?

Me : Oh noo! We've broken up a long back.

X : Oh, I'm sorry!!

Me : Don't be, it's fine, I'm good. Really.

X : Oh sure, I mean happy for you

January 25th, 2023

X : Hi, how are you?

Me : I'm fine, you?

X : I'm good too. Are you talking with her?

Me : With whom? You mean Y (the third friend)

X : Yes her

Me : Umm, no. But why?

X : It's nothing

Me : Okay.

X : See ya then:)

Me : (Left on read)

January 31st, 2025

Dear diary, I get it now, she was never happy for me. When I was in love, she wasn't jealous that there's a hole in our friendship, but she was never happy for me. She was jealous because I found someone who loves me before her, she thinks I don't deserve anyone, now connecting all the dots I get it now, it's been 7 years of our friendship, yet it's due to my stupidity, I've realized late, very late, how she was always a toxic friend. She was just pretending to be happy, when deep down she was jealous because I have real people around me, unlike her. Thankyou god for saving me. Memories do hit me like nostalgic, but I know deep down those were just old sad and good days. Perhaps, we were innocent and I was lame too for trusting her, when all she did was break my heart. Thankyou god for protecting me. Now, I know whom to trust and I am careful after all what she has done. Maybe believing in friendships again wasn't my thing, but hopefully may I find people who would bloom with me old and grey. Maybe I've found them or maybe not, but for now all I do is trust and love myself before I trust anyone else. I'm safe and feeling better now. Somehow, solitude embraced me and gave me some hope to live. Thankyou god for blessing me too.

P.S : Maybe this is nothing, but thankyou guys for making it till here.

P.S.S : Stay tuned for more friendship parts. Please don't curse me, but this is a sensitive topic for all of us and ofcourse we all can relate to it too, isn't it?